Wednesday, February 09, 2011

So much to say! I will have to wait for later.
Tonight we are going to go get some good food and then I have my traditional (yes, I'm calling it a tradition) pre-funeral facial at my favorite spa. It did wonders for de-puffing last time (wow...last time.)
Thank you so much to everyone who commented on my blog, on the online obituary, on facebook, who called, sent flowers or a card, brought food or who simply thought about us over the last few days. We feel your love and support and the protective soft bubble it provides. And thank you to whoever called the mortuary and corrected my spelling just moments after the obituary was posted, and before it went to press!
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I'm setting up a silly little "Lilies for Lily" craft for the viewing; Zar has made it clear he thinks it's a bit dumb but the thought has been nagging me for days and I'm going to do it. So if you are coming to the viewing, be prepared to do some cutting and taping. Last time (there it is again) Charlotte's funeral was a wonderful, spiritual, special day and I'm hoping for the same for Lily Pie. Although we aren't doing the huge funeral for Lily--a smaller affair seemed appropriate for such a small one,however, please anyone who wants to come, please come see us. Feeling your love and seeing how Lily impacted you is what will get us through the next few chilly months.
Much, much more, later.
Until tomorrow.

16 comments:

Amanda said...

I have been thinking about you guys today but I didn't want to bother you during your spa treatment. Hope things are good. I will see you tomorrow. Love you guys tons!

Ahlquist Family said...

Erin & Zar: I just heard about your sweet baby going home. My heart is so sad for you. I can't tell you how much I admire your strength & faith. May the Lord continue to bless you & your family.

Carleton & Robyn said...

You are in our thoughts. We love you.

Anonymous said...

I was blessed for seeing you today (Wednesday) So grateful you came! Thanks for sharing your blog. What an inspiration. Your two heavenly angels have made this world a better place. Thanks for sharing Lily with me. Love, Jodi

McKensie Naomi said...

You don't know me, but I have been reading through your entire blog and couldn't help but feel the sweet spirit you and your family carry, through the tears. Thank you for sharing. I am so very sorry you cannot hold your beautiful girls. Very bittersweet, but now there are many angels watching over you! Continue to write and inspire the rest of us. I had a miscarriage back in December, and it doesn't even compare, but I pretend to know what its like to lose a child, and am still struggling. You are amazing and so optimistic. I plan on continuing to read your blog to bring peace to my family. I pray the rainbows and butterflies :) can surround you. Best wishes! Xo

alliemich said...

I am praying for you and your family. What a strong faithful woman you are especially after all the trials you have been through. Bless your sweet baby - she is in the arms of Our Lord now, no suffering...

stacey said...

Erin,
I have been reading your blog and thinking of you and your family daily. Although we have never met, you are an inspiration to me...your strength is amazing. May God bring you peace at this difficult time. All four of your girls are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your sweet Lily with me!
Stacey

Sweet Angels said...

I just wanted to say how truely sorry i am for your loss..
i have been reading your blog for what feels like forever, but it has prob been the whole length of lilys short life here on earth. i am part of the balanced transloction yahoo group. i admire your strenth and courage and your amazing family.. i wish you all the strenth in the world to help you get through some dark days ahead. wishing you all the love. xx Jo

Hendricksonblog said...

Sometimes we lose sight of what is really important and something brings us back. Thanks for that today! Heartbreaking yet so spiritual and amazing at the same time. You are admirable even though you probably don't mean to be.
You probably will never know the lives you touch but I thought I would at least tell you that you touched mine.
April

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

You are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Zar and Erin, We thought of you all day today. Our hearts are with you even though we are not there in person. Much love to both of you and to your amazing family. Kay and Fred

The Snells said...

Erin, I am Juli Snells sister in law (I married Matts brother Scott) and have heard about you and Charlotte, Lily, Ava and Ella quite a bit..we even met briefly at Arianna's birthday party (I believe) and I saw Juli's post about Lily and it brought me to tears. You and Zar are such strong and amazing parents. My daughter has issues (severe reflux, food allergies, skin sensitivity which we use coconut oil for too!) but NOTHING compared to what you and Juli go through. You truly inspire me. I just wanted you to know that your family is in my thoughts and my heart aches for you. I do believe children "pick" their parents and you have had amazing girls pick you for the kind and loving home you give them, along with every chance to live a full and happy life.
~Jesse Snell

Erin said...

You are amazing and inspiring. I truly believe you are the epitome of Heavenly Fathers hands at work on the earth today! You are strong and courageous and thank you for sharing your story!

Jeanie and Vaughn Bigham said...

I found your blog through a friend. I read your story. I'm in tears. What an amazing women you must be. We need more like you in this world. I can hardley make it through the day with my 19month with out wanting to pull my hair out. And you have all these little ones and the pain of losing little ones as well. Thank you for being strong. Your girls are all so beautiful.
Big Hugs! from a birth mother(of 2) and mother of 1 in awe!
Jeanie

Jo (Ireland) said...

You are such a beautiful family, and a complete inspiration. Thank you for sharing your precious babies lives with the world. My daughter died 2 years ago shortly after birth knowing all along she would die, I cannot begin to imagine the pain of it ever happening again. But you inspire me to face the future, grow and live life to the fullest. Your angel daughters Charlotte and Lily are beautiful miracles. The true miracle of love. Sending you strength, I don't even know you, but I share the pain of losing a daughter. May Lily and Charlotte rest with our Lord until that moment when you meet them again in Heaven. I am praying for you all. With love. xxxx

Tyler & Laura said...

Erin,

You don't know me (I live in the boondocks of Hyrum UT), but I found your blog after reading the touching obituary for your sweet dolly, Lily. I started with your first blog post, and I could not stop reading. You are, without a doubt, one of the most amazing and REAL women on this earth. Your sweet heart, your sense of humor, your personality...I can't even begin to tell you how much I admire you. I can't even begin to tell you how much respect I have for you. My nephew, who is just over a year, was diagnosed before birth with hypoplastic left heart syndrome, which in short means that he was born with only two heart chambers. We have nearly lost him more than once. But I cannot even begin to fathom what it would be like to have one of my own children struggling with a terminal illness or defect. I wish I could reach through the screen and just give you a big hug. You could not be a better mother if you tried, and your daughters are so blessed to have you as their mother. You and your family are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Laura Speth