Saturday, February 21, 2009

On June 30 2005 our whole family met in a hospital room and took turns passing around a precious baby. There were tears, blessings given, compassionate doctors and nurses, oxygen, and so much love and light.
This morning the scene repeated itself, in a different hospital, a different room, but the same family and the same baby, now 18 pounds heavier and even more precious than she was the day she was born.
Charlotte passed away this morning. She had a big send off party, love and blessings and tears, and when she knew we were as ready as we were going to be, she went home, very quickly and peacefully and in her mommy's arms.
We have had a long, exhausting, devestating day, but just when I feel like I can't do this, I can't get through this, I catch a glimpse of my daughter, laughing and dancing and hugging her dog Molly. My heart is filled with warmth and peace and I know I can go on.
We will go on. She's still with us. She will always be our precious baby girl.

8 comments:

Terry Family said...

We love you are your family and will really miss little Boo. Christian is a true artist when it comes to some things and would like to offer his services in making you a movie of her life. We would just need to get some pictures from you. If you would like that or need any help at all please call me. 5654650 is my home and 5809204 is my cell. I can help with food, watching Ella if you need, anything. We love your family and our prayers and thoughts are with you!

Alex Drake said...

We love you all so much. We want to help in any way we can, babysitting, calling friends, bringing food, or even just sitting and hugging and talking. We are here for you, always, no matter what.

Lincoln said...

I'm thinking about you, Zar, Ella, and Charlotte. Wish I could do more.

Shannon said...

There really are no words that seem appropriate. Just telling you how much we love you-doesn't even come close to what we are feeling. But we do-- we love your family so much. And we are so devastated that you are going through this. Charlotte was an angel- she still is. We were so blessed that we got to spend so much time with her and get to hold that little piece of heaven for awhile. Holding her in the hospital that first day- was like holding a miracle in my arms. We love you- and are always here for you.

Kathie said...

You don't know me, I am McCarrey's Mom and Shannon's mom-in law. I just want you to know you are in my prayers. I want to put my arms around you and save you from this pain. I have had two perfect children, just as Charlotte is perfect, that went back to their Heavenly Father much too soon. You will never forget the joy she brought you. She will forever be in your heart. I understand that she was so special to you and it will be a rough go. You will be stronger for having had her in your life. She will always be your beautiful daughter. Know that there are so many that love you and turn to them for support on the days that are rough. If I can help you in nay way, please let Shannon know. Kathie

Amanda said...

Erin, you know how much I love Charlotte and you and Zar and Ella. You are my best friend and I felt as though Boofus was my family. She has a perfect little body now that can do all of the things that she wanted to do while she was with us. We will miss Boofus very much. Love to all of you. Jack will miss his buddy.

tennessee mike said...

You don't know me either, but I'm a friend of Amanda's. I had been reading some of your blogs earlier this year, and couldn't get over how precious Charlotte is.

I am very sorry for your loss.

Dee said...

Erin and Zar,
When Morgan told me the news of little Charlotte I was lost for words. I went to my computer and looked at the picuter with my Ireland holding her at the beach with this big grin on her face. I am sure Charlotte is looking down on all of you, with that same big grin on her face. All of my kids asked if we could have a little party for Charlotte at the beach. Everyone loved Charlotte. She touched so many of our lives and will always be a part of our family. Thanks for always sharing that cute girl with our family and letting her be a part of our lives. You are all in our hears and prayers